It's crazy man. These three words are words that I have heard throughout my life. It's crazy that he made that winning basket. It's crazy that she is having another baby. It's crazy how good of a cook your mother is. It's crazy how well work went today. It's crazy man, just crazy.
Some might say that my father, the man behind these words, tends to over use them, and I sometimes would agree with such people. My father always thinks everything is crazy. No matter what happened, why it happened or how it happened, it is simply just crazy. Therefore, growing up with this repetition, I've learned to adjust to his obsession and ignore the crazy phrase completely.
However, this adjustment of mine was quickly brought back one night. My father got a magazine in the mail about our universe and the science behind it. I specifically remember the front cover displaying a picture of what looked like an explosion of magenta, blue, black and red color but was later described as the universe. My dad, who usually spends his week nights watching a basketball game, spent the whole night reading every last word of this magazine. He didn't move one muscle. The only things moving were his eyes as they scanned the pages. I was curious to see what could possibly be more interesting than watching a Bulls game and screaming at the refs as if they could hear him. The only problem was he had seemed to be too interested to take his eyes off the page.
So I sat there waiting for him to be done. As he read the magazine, turning page after page, I sat there staring at the only thing I could possibly see on that magazine; our universe blown up on a 8' by 11' sheet of paper. I swear I stared at that picture for what seemed like a half an hour, but what broke my focus was the movement of my dads lips and the sound that came out, "It's crazy man."
He had to say no more.
As I looked at that picture of the universe, so may questions popped into my head. How did this form? What is it made of? Why is it like this? I felt like a pretty stupid human being when I couldn't answer the simplest questions. Because of this occurrence, I've recently compared that moment of my life to the moments happening to Sophie in
Sophie's World. She is being overwhelmed with questions that seem so simply, so easy, but are really something that we find the human brain can't even begin to answer. So once again Sophie and I are both feeling pretty useless.
Even though we may seem useless to the knowledge of these question, we are not useless to each other. By reading the novel, I have expanded on my previous questions and may have gotten the slightest bit closer to understanding these basic questions about our universe. By understanding that everything is made of the same one thing that form different objects, I can understand or even question the bang theory. Yes, the universe started with a bang, literally. However, the substance that started this bang couldn't be absolutely nothing, it had to be something, therefore something must have already existed. It's crazy man.
It blows my mind every time I begin to think of such things. Philosophy is a crazy subject to think about. But the thing that holds both me and Sophie together was that first initial state of wonder that came upon us when we were first asked that question. And just like any other human being the only thing we had to say was it's crazy man, just crazy.
-Katie Dwyer